Dying doesn't scare me at all. Now, I don't relish the idea of going out slowly and painfully, but I long ago made peace with the understanding that the physical part of this journey will end.

What scares the hell out of me is the idea of not living first. I don't want to take my last breath wishing I had done this or that. I don't want to wonder what that would have been like. I don't want to have a long list of "if only's".

And yet, time and time again, I hesitate to do what I really want to do because I fear it might have a negative effect on people I care about.

So, I have this war of fears going on inside me, afraid of living, afraid of not really living, and I just can't seem to get the truth that doing what is best for me will always turn out to be best for everyone. Whatever makes us think that trimming our lives to avoid causing others pain will do anything except cause pain to ourselves and others? The idea that we should sacrifice our own lives to make someone else's better is just a false premise and it is a destroyer. On top of that, it never makes anybody's life better.

Goddess, grant me the courage to change the things I can.

You've already got it, babe. Just live it.

"The tragedy of life is not that it ends so soon, but that we wait so long to begin it." -  W. M. Lewis

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If you work in hotels for any length of time, you will eventually need this type of service. Death happens, sometimes when you least expect it. 

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 "The Invitation"

It doesn't interest me what you do for a living.
I want to know what you ache for 
and if you dare to dream of meeting your heart's desire.

It doesn't interest me how old you are.
I want to know if you will risk looking like a fool
for love, for your dream, for the adventure of being alive.

It doesn't interest me if the story you are telling is true. 
I want to know if you can disappoint others to be true to yourself, 
if you can bear the accusation of betrayal and not betray your own soul,
if you can be faithless and therefore trustworthy.

I want to know if you can see beauty even when it is not pretty, 
and if you can source your own life from its presence. 
I want to know if you can live with failure and still stand at the edge
of the lake and shout to the silver moon, "Yes!"

It doesn't interest me to know where you live or how much money you have. 
I want to know if you can get up after a night of grief and despair, 
weary and bruised, and do what needs to be done.

It doesn't interest me who you are or how you came to be here. 
I want to know if you will stand with me at the center
of the fire and not shrink back.

It doesn't interest me where or what you studied. 
I want to know what sustains you from the inside when all else falls away. 
I want to know if you can be alone with yourself 
and if you truly like the company you keep in the empty moments.

(via @positivepresent) http://www.positivelypresent.com/2009/07/stopwantingstartbeing.html

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 "The secret of attraction is to love yourself. Attractive people judge neither themselves nor others. They are open to gestures of love. They think about love, and express their love in every action. They know that love is not a mere sentiment, but the ultimate truth at the heart of the universe." – DEEPAK CHOPRA

Yeah, baby! That's what I'm talking about.

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 I just read an inspiring and encouraging article by @dspradlin001 on The Changing Nature of Work.  http://blog.innocentive.com/2009/07/10/the-changing-nature-of-work/.

I find this very exciting and encouraging. The very thought of people doing what engages them and excites them arouses a thrill of excitement in my belly. Okay, it turns me on.

Can you imagine the positive energy of people the world over being excited about work, instead of dreading and drudging and hating their work? The energy of some work places is so low, it is almost painful to step into them. But a business that is filled with people doing work they love will draw us in and lift us up in a most delicious way. That is in addition to the benefit that all will receive from work done in love. Whether we like it or not, we leave an energetic imprint on everything we do. Even if we do a job perfectly, if we are dreading it and wishing we were somewhere else, that energy will pervade our work. If we are enjoying ourselves and doing what we are and what we love, that is the energy we will pour into what we do.

Still, the word "work" has come to mean drudgery for a lot of people, so I propose a new word, "plork". It is pronounced like "work", but begins like "play". It is defined as "work that feels like play". Works for me.

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In my humble opinion, when we start expecting someone to serve us, it takes the joy out of serving. For me, serving is enjoyable when it is a gift, and less enjoyable when it becomes an obligation. 

I feel that we can leave the joy in by appreciating every act of service as a gift, and that our relationships will be filled with the spirit of loving and giving when we do.

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 Just before I woke up, I was told in my dream that someone has been looking for me for quite some time. I am ready to be found. May I shine more brightly so that I may attract those who will work together with me to fulfill our soul's purpose. 

I suppose that is part of the purpose for the Reiki 3 attunement. Everything unfolds in perfect time and order.

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My dear friend and I are both madly in love with Josh Groban. It's not just his heavenly voice, it's also his soulful presence. I wonder how he feels about polyamory. :) 

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 Yesterday, I noticed 1:11 on the clock and then today, I noticed 11:11. I am not well-versed in numerology, so whenever I have noticed number sequences lately, I have looked them up. I understand that interpretations of these numbers are subjective and that we can only look to said interpretations as guides, not definitions. And according to http://www.spiritual-path.com/numerology.htm, 111, 1111 - These signs indicate that your thoughts are correct for the new cycle of your life and they are on your Spiritual Path.  Continue with and follow these, as these thoughts relate to a new cycle in your life that is on your Spiritual Path. 

This time, I am aware of what I was thinking just prior to seeing the number sequence. This morning, I was reading one of my self-help books and started thinking, "What is it I am seeking? Why do I read all these books?" I became aware that what I am looking for is the knowledge and resources I feel I need to fulfill my soul's purpose and create a joy-filled life. Then, the thought came to me that I can call in that information and those resources. They all come from source, anyway. So I did.

Also, I have been noticing pressure in my throat chakra off and on for quite some time, and I haven't known what to make of it. I am wondering now if it is a channeling thing. I have not put a whole lot of stock in channeling in the past, but I have come to realize that we are all channels of Source by virtue of being portions of the One having human experiences.

Well, the Universe seems to agree.

But what wants to be expressed through me?

I have always loved to write, when writing is an expression from my soul. But I have never had any real desire to "create information products". In other words, I don't care to write for the purpose of making money. When I write, I want to touch hearts and souls. If I can both touch hearts and souls and receive financial compensation for it, then that is a wonderful manifestation and I gratefully receive that.

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I love myself with all my heart

Eternal knowing, God impart

No more hatred, no more pain

Legacy of heaven, mine to claim

Once I really hated me

A self-induced catastrophe

Others began to hate me, too

Hate's reflection became my due

When I look in any mirror

Each reflection is my own

If I dislike that which I am

Rejection by others will be shown

In self-acceptance let me grow

To hereby let all others know

I want them to accept me, too

They only follow what I do

I ask myself to marry me

To thus fulfill my destiny

I promise always to be true

Self-love and honor I am due

Sweet self, I'm sorry for the pain

Forgive and love me once again

I want me for eternity

A better lover then to be

Now every bond is sweeter, too

For loving me is loving you

Within the church of heaven's house

I do take me to be my spouse

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